Tuesday, May 1, 2007

What a day?


Do you ever have those days when you just want to crawl back into bed, pull the covers over your head and stay there all day? Well, today has been one of those days. Not that everything has gone wrong and I probably have no reason to complain about anything but I will surely be glad when tomorrow arrives. I had to start my day out in a rush, which is not the norm since we home school. Don't get me wrong we still get up early however during the school week we are usually not in a rush. But this morning when I wanted to stay in bed for a while I had to get up and go to jury duty. How lucky I was to be chosen for Grand Jury. Which means for the next five weeks I will spend 1 day a week at the court house. I still can not get over the judge not dismissing me since I home school, take care of a 87 year old and about to move. Don't take me the wrong way. I have no problem with serving as a juror, but with everything that is and about to happen, I do not need another egg in my basket right now.

Well my biggest struggle today was that on this day 3 years ago my mother passed away, it does not seem like it has been that long and then some days it seems like it has been forever. I miss her everyday but it seems like I miss her more now that we are planning to move back to Florida. I have to realize that she is not going to be hour away and I know that, but some days I want to believe that the distance between her and I, is the same distance between Starke (my home town) and Bowling Green. Days like today makes me realize how short life really is. It makes me wish that I would have picked up the phone more often just to tell her that I love her and how wonderful she is. To anyone that is reading this, if your mother is still alive call her and tell her that you love her, don't wait until Mother's day.

Courtney, the sensitive and caring child that she is, reminds me so much of my mom, that I feel like she is always near. She can sense when I am truly missing my mom, because she will give me a big hug and sing a song that my mom used to sing to her. Just like my grandmother, my mother always loved to sing and now Courtney enjoys singing.

Tomorrow is a new day!!!!

8 comments:

Terri said...

Thanks for reminding me of the important things in life. We seem to forget them often. I am keeping your family in my prayers. If you need anything just let me know.

judith said...

I wish I had realized yesterday what you were dealing with. Like so many times we only look at the things that are going on around us and not what is truly happening. I am here if you need anything.

Elaina said...

I just called my Mom. Thanks for the reminder about what is important. It is so easy to get caught up in the daily grind of life that it is easy at times to forget the important things. I'll be thinking about you today and praying that you have a better day.

Just Plain Boys said...

I feel so bad. How many times did we talk yesterday and I didn't even realize what day it was. I like others need to slow down and think of the more important things in life. If you need anything or just need to talk let me know. I have had a bad week also thinking of my grandmother.

Lisa said...

Thanks for reminding me that no matter what small disasters are going on around you,that the most important thing in life is your family. You and yours are in my prayers.

Zoe's Mommy said...

Your words have opened my eyes to things going in my world. Thank you for sharing those personal thoughts. Praying for you.

mommy of girls said...

I love you and am praying for you. I cannot begin to imagine that hurt, but I hope you know you are loved. I pray for better days and praise God for your sweet memories of your mom.

Anonymous said...

I realized I accidently posted this on the wrong blog. My bad!

I loved your mom. I think of her often. Your family has always held a special place in my heart. I'm so glad you see so much of your Mom in Courtney...means she's taking after such a wonderful Christian woman...I have always seen a lot of your mom in you. I love you Carla!

Julie Burkert